i am breaking up with one of my best and most reliable friends. her name is Distraction. oh, she goes by other aliases: Mac, Tivo, etsy, Anthropologie, Starbucks, Michael Scott and Canon to name a few. when she’s around, i don’t have to deal with things in my life like making my bed, creating a budget or admitting that i haven’t exercised in 365 days. she’s a temptress who makes it easy and even necessary to skip over the empty places in my heart that come from unmet desires and longings. Distraction is always busy and quite noisy. but all of these manmade sounds that I’m replacing God’s sounds with are merely imitations. and these imitations only suffice for so long and then i crave the real thing, which leads me to the breakup.
i want to be present. i want to stay when i’d rather run. i want to feel when it’s easier to numb out. i don’t want to call on Distraction when things feel hard. so, i’m setting goals. not just tuck them away in a journal and throw them in my nightstand goals, but yell them out loud on the internet goals. i hope putting them out here will keep me accountable.
so, here they go, february 2010 goals:
1. finalize all of our business insurance
2. decide on new logo/name
3. set up two dinners/coffee dates with people in the business that i admire
4. choose a photographer to take our pictures this year
5. sell our canon 50 mm 1.4 and our nikon 85 mm 1.4 lenses
6. purchase a mac desktop
7. change my twitter background
8. make my bed every morning (this makes my husband very happy)
9. try at least 2 new recipes (i’d love suggestions on this one. i eat everything except ground beef)
10. connect my facebook and twitter accounts
11. create some snack bags (more on this to come..)
12. choose a date for chris’s birthday party 
13. take pictures just for fun
14. go on a date with my husband
15. and because i like to put things on my list that i can immediately scratch off, bake more cupcakes.
because junk food is the cure for all big break ups.
by jen
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